It's strange to think that even though I've "come home" that there is still some settling in required. I thought it would be a pretty seamless transition, but I'd forgotten that the city that I left behind doesn't really exist anymore. And that's a good thing - that's part of why I left. I wanted something different than what I'd known all my life. And I'm not the same person that I was when I left either - I've been away for four and a half years, it would've been strange if I were the same.
Halifax changed and so did I.
And it's all for the best! I'm not over here lamenting that I miss what I or Halifax used to be like - I'm glad we've both changed! Halifax is growing and I couldn't be happier, but that has meant that in a way it doesn't feel quite like "home." And that's okay! We'll adapt to one another, just as I adapted to other places that I've lived.
I suspect I'll need to get through all of the seasons at last once before I feel like I'm "home." It felt that way in Victoria too; I was happy there but I didn't feel entirely at ease until I'd been there a full year. Even though Halifax is where I was born and spent 28 years of my life, I figure it will be much of the same. It doesn't help matters that I'm not summer's biggest fan - it's far too warm and sticky in the Maritimes, I've never really liked it. The fact that we've moved back in that has made adjusting a bit more difficult for sure. It's hard to feel at ease anywhere when you're in the midst of the season that you feel the least at ease in. But you all know that I'm an autumn girl. ;)
Things are starting to feel settled, though! Both Brad and I are in new jobs, and our apartment is mostly unpacked. We still need a few pieces of furniture and to figure out some storage options, but it's beginning to feel a lot more like home, and less like a place where our stuff is.
I'm still working on figuring out my groove here. Even though we have a lot of friends here sometimes I forget! Not that they're here, but that we're in the same place! I've definitely done triple-takes when running into people I know when I'm out and about. I'm used to seeing people who I think look like people I know, but they can't be because they live on the other side of the country. Not the case anymore! Well, I mean, I still know people on the other side of the country, but I haven't located their Halifax doppelgängers yet!
All in all, things are good right now. It was a little rocky at first, but we got through it. I'm excited to see what our future back on the east coast holds.