I have discussed this with some friends, made it “Facebook official,” and talked about it in other places around the internet, but I’ve not brought it up here, which is something that I would like to change right now, seeing as how I’m likely going to be updating this blog far more frequently, so as to keep in touch with people.
At the end of next month, I will be packing my bags and moving across the country to British Columbia.
This is something that happened very suddenly, and to be honest, isn’t something I thought I would be doing, but the opportunity being presented feels like the most right thing that I have ever done (along with the most insane). It was not a decision that was made lightly, even though it was the right thing to do, and at this point in my life there is nothing that I want to do more. While my reason for moving all the way across the country was born more of not wanting to give something and someone up when we have a good thing going, it could not have happened at a better time in my life. When 2013 began, I wanted to make this very much my year – take the chances that I never had before as they were presented to me, do things that scared me, do things that I always wanted to do but for some reason never did, carve my own path in life instead of worrying so much about other people and what they thought.
And, in the last month of an already fantastic and crazy year, I’ve had the opportunity to go all out. Why not take it?
I am so excited to embrace this, so thrilled to begin this new chapter in my life, but I am also more terrified than I have ever been. I’m leaving behind practically everything and everyone I’ve ever known, and the idea of not seeing my parents, sister, and dog whenever I want to has been the most difficult pill to swallow. How am I going to get by without weekly hugs from my Dad, my Mum’s home cooking, puppy kisses from my dog, and my sister’s snark? Family is a big part of my life, and that aspect of this is going to be the most difficult. Thank goodness for Skype! I anticipate that I will be using it a lot. A couple of my cousins are out that way, and I have two very dear friends who live in the city that I will be moving to, so it helps knowing that I won’t be “alone,” and that there will be friendly faces. But I will certainly miss the friendly faces here as well.
This is insane, I know it is. There’s no way to downplay the insanity or hugeness of what I’m doing. I would not want to spend the rest of my life wondering “what if?”
Fully processing this still has not happened yet, as I’ve had less than a week to deal with this. My life since this past Saturday has been an emotional roller coaster, and last night was the first decent night’s sleep I’ve had. I’ve done a lot of laughing, a lot of smiling, and a lot of crying. I anticipate that there will be much more of all of that in the weeks to come.
My first blog entry of 2013 was titled “The future starts slow.”
The rest of my future starts now.
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