I seem to exist between two states lately; thinking that I have all the time in the world before I move, or thinking that it’s coming too quickly and that I need more time. At the end of the day, it’s happening, and it’s happening soon, and when the day arrives, everything will happen how it’s meant to. (Can I say “happen” more?)
Today, I hit a bit of a milestone in the countdown to moving to Victoria – only twenty days remaining! While I’m sad to be leaving Nova Scotia, I also can’t wait to get out to British Columbia, and a lot of that right now has to do with the fact that my boyfriend is already out there.
He left on New Year’s Eve, so our relationship for the past two weeks has consisted of daily texting which is difficult sometimes because of the time difference. It’s not terrible by any means, but it’s been hard. It helps that he’s so sweet, and so eager to have me out there with him. Sometimes I forget how wonderful he is, and the things he says to me or asks me catch me off guard. He asked me a a week ago when I was coming out, and when I told him I asked why, thinking that maybe he was having second thoughts about wanting me out there. “Because I miss you, silly,” he told me, and I’m sure that I giggled for about five minutes.
While I’m sad to be leaving home, my family, my friends, and my Carmen behind, I’m so excited to get started on this new chapter in my life. And more than that, I’m so excited to start that chapter with him.
(The title of this post comes from one of my favourite songs ever – “Hello, I’m in Delaware” by City and Colour. You should check it out! It’s beautiful and haunting, and I feel that it really speaks to me right now.)